I am a creation of sai ,I am debtfull to HIM for his blessings which he keeps showering upon me all day and night .i can never payback Him for his love but atleast can devotee some hours of day to His service .one of such service is maintaing this blog and writing about His leelas.As such I am not very happy about my irregular postings but then have to play all other roles also of being a Mother ,a wife and above all a social creature .I am not afraid of anything bacause I feel that lack of faith in His powers makes you feel afraid .I have absolute unshakable and ultimate faith in my SAI which makes me a strong and determined person.
PRIYANKA RAUTELA.DHANKAR on Monday, February 02, 2009
Many times I really think as how our loving Saima takes care of everyone at the same time ?
Baba is so loving and caring that its impossible for us measure the depth of his Love .
Today I am Sharing a very heart touching experience of C.Saibaba sir .
Whatever he is today is just because of Sai .
Here I am attaching His mail for all :
My dear Priyanka beta!Sairam.
You are doing a very yeoman service to our Lord. May Sai bless you.
After reading naveen's experience, I would like to share how Babapulled me to His path.
If possible kindly try to publish in the blog.
I am working in East Coast Railway at Puri Railway Station since 2004.I was at Divisional Head Quarters at Khurda Road in a significantpost for twelve years till 2004 and my transfer to Puri was a resultof some vigilance allegations.
Though my name is Saibaba, I seldom visited Sai' Mandir or Shirdiduring my 50 years of life since then. My visits were very casualeven at Shirdi not with devotion.After my transfer to Puri, I was to shuttle from Khurda Road where Ihave a house and family.
I was completely in depression those days,even I suffered heart attact and Angio Plasty was done to me inSeptember 2005.My financial position was also dwindling and I was contemplating toleave this world, because of difficult conditions in job, in healthand in finance.
I had a strong urge to commit suicide in the month ofMay 2007.It was 20th May 2007. Around 1 PM. After completion of first half'swork I was going to Hotel for lunch carrying Rs. 15/ in my pocket. Idid not notice a tall and old gentle man with white Kurta and pyjama,who crossed me until he called me with my name 'Sai'. Littlesurprised I turned and this gentle man aged around 70 - 75 years withmesmerizing smile on His face was asking me in chaste Hindi 'Could yougive me Rs. 20/?'.
I was sursprising that how he know my name andmore surprised when he asked Rs. 20/. Seeing his mesmerising smile Icould not say no to him and asked him I could give him Rs. 20/ if hefollows me to my office which is just a few metres away for which heinstantly agreed.He accompanied to my office and I gave him Rs. 20/ and he kept it inbound book. Still engulfed in surprise, I asked him how could he knowmy name when he was to leave.
Again same smile. 'Sai! I am fromShirdi, for me every body is Sai', he answered. He further added 'Youare passing a difficult and hard times now. Take back this twentyrupees and this Rudraksha'. I had become little sarcastic by then andwas thinking that some body might have told him about me and he maydemand more money for this worship or that worship.
He continued,'Sai! I will come to your house and take this Rs. 20/ from you afteryou get rid of your difficulties'. I interrupted him by asking how doyou know my house. With a same smile on his face he replied' I toldyou Sai, I am from Shirdi, I know every thing'. I was just watchingthis gentle man with half disbelief and the other half sarcastically.He further continued 'Buy ingredients with this Rs. 20, preparePayasam yourself only and feed to a black cow during the first threeThurs Days of next month and you would be alright'.
While I was stillin astonishment, he left and I could not find him again.I had discussed this with my family members and my younger brother is Satya Sai's devotee and he told me that was it nothing but the miracleof Shirdi Saibaba, who only accepts Daskhina and returns the same andyou can find numerous such instances in Sai Satcharitra.
He gave meSai Satcharitra in Telugu and asked me to read to know about theinstances. Before 5th June 2007, the first Thurs Day, I had completedtwo rounds of parayana.On the morning of 5th June 2007, I prepared Payasam with theingredients that I had purchased with Rs. 20 and put in a banana leaf.
I started searching for a black cow on my bike for two hours but invain. Cursing myself for believing some strangers, I was watching TVat my home, when my younger daughter shouted and called me to find aBlack Cow standing in front of my house, as if was it waiting for me.Tears rolled down from my eyes.
I was blaming myself for my ignorance. Immediately fed Payasam and the cow ate that not leavingeven the Banana leaf.There was no looking back since then. I gained my lost selfconfidence. My difficulties are receding.
Its Sai, only Baba all the way. Now He is my way, He is my Life, He is my everything.
Ever in Sai Seva